I am losing confidence in myself. That can’t be good. I decide I am not good at something even before attempting it. Something is not right guys. This isn’t me.
And enough with the self victimization. I am growing old of it myself. Shitty things happen in life. Get over it. There will be new chapters. And better days.
Another noticeable fault in my system is that I am starting my day by looking at my phone screen. My inner angel self(you know out of the two, angel and demon) is questioning it too, ’Girl! Really? Morning with a phone screen!’. And I am not waking up with very good thoughts. Morning then really sets the tone of my day and I am anxious throughout.
I know better. I genuinely do. And I am not looking at my phone when I wake up tomorrow.
I am hurt, not emotionally but literally, with a bruised knee from dashing my bike on to a road divider. Well stupid things happen! I have fallen a couple of times now, appears as if I am making money out of it! Makes me shrink my head inside my hands.
The day has been full of mishappenings hovering around.
Woke up to a very creepy crawling tiny creature in my room. It/he/she made my sleep go away in a split second. After the failed attempt of catching it in a jar, I just left it on its own. New paid guest in my room still resting somewhere as I type this.
Skipped on my breakfast. Drove in the rain. Had the front tire of my bike losing pressure in middle of the rain. And then this fall. Called up my mom, like a six-year-old runs to their momma after getting injured. Reenacted the whole scene to her. I am better now.
One good thing happened: Remember I mentioned about teaching kids? Well, I got a mail today that I got through this recruitment drive I had attended and Voila!! I am going to teach kids on weekends now, real soon. I am pretty excited about it!!! And a tad bit nervous. But happy. :).