Musings #015

Oh man!

I have been from extremely elated yesterday to feeling extremely dejected today.

I am feeling so out of my skin. There are new people in the house. Friends, family and partner are all away. Growing distant to the old friends. Growing concerned over my ageing parents. Growing complacent in a happy relationship.

It’s so difficult to safeguard one’s innocence.

Is it a human tendency to seek distress? A lot of my long standing problems got resolved yesterday. I was super relieved. And today was like a fresh canvas sort of a day. And what did I do? Absolutely wasted it away.

I have been feeling lonesome. So many people around and so alone. These changing times, constant barrage of social media, flimsy dating culture around, the need to have an opinion on everything, how much can you share, what is cool and what’s not, feeling old, friends talking about having kids, covid, zoom calls, weight gains, criticisms, trust issues, social awkwardness, life. Aaaaaarghhhhh. It’s like I am feeling pukish but in a metaphorical sense. Don’t even have a solution yet.

Dreamer

If it’s alive inside of you, it isn’t dead.

If it makes you restless, you are still at it.

If you are taking baby steps forward, well, you are still progressing.

If it doesn’t make you sleep at night, the fire is still burning.

If the idea of it gives you respite, a dry spell wouldn’t stop you.

If it resurfaces time and again, universe is directing you towards it.

If it excites you, that’s where your happiness resides.

Our dreams you see, they form our entity.

You cannot separate one from another.

You would not relinquish it even if you tried.

So, to the believers I would say…

Dream a little more.