One day at a time

I barely remember what I last wrote about. Loosening ties with myriad things from the past. Is time playing its magic trick? Life is changing. Some days for the better, some days for the worst. I have become more subtle with my reactions and it sometimes scares me. I guess things still affect me but I express them in a more feeble manner. It is hitting more hard than ever to me that everything I experience is fleeting. All the priceless moments and all the tormenting nights. How does one stay sane amidst this chaos of variation? Where nothing is consistent, each day is a new challenge, and any slight indication of stability turns into a farce. I am a living paradox of patience and restiveness. Count me for ages but lose me by the hours. Working on my flaws, taking up healthy habits, getting better each day. Consistency comes with time, isn’t it?

 

We turn ONE!

happygirl5Yesterday was my 1st anniversary with WordPress. I am like that husband who forgets the date and compensates for it a day later! Of course it means a lot to me darling. I have been so busy. bla and blah. Couldn’t find time on the D-day, but I will make up for it today.
So anyway, I am happy about this ONE year thing.
We have had a pleasant journey…I and my blog. It has made me more calm from inside, if you guys know what I mean?
I have had episodes in the last year…heart breaks, journeys, insomnia, moments of doubt, highs and lows. You know, usual human stuff. I have let it all out here and realized that happiness manifolds when you share it with others and blues get pacified at so many levels. Being faulty, or feeling lonely doesn’t come across as weird anymore. People out here are lovely. They have cheered me and appeased me; made me fly high on days I recognized as plain ordinary.

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Then, I read what others write. On some days I ponder about it, the other days marvel at it. Some make me sad, some make me jubilant and some make my mouth go wide open! I kind of knew I had this emotional side to me and people here hit the damn right chords. So, THANK YOU all.
I tend to continue.
Happy blogging to myself and everyone reading it. Yoohooo!

Back to roots!

It is July already! Retrospection time may be for what I have done in half a year. Won’t dwell. I have been pretty occupied in my office lately. Have been deviating from my usual habits. There was this flash mob which took place last Thursday and which I was a part of. We used to have daily practice sessions in between office hours and some how I managed to sneak away from my seat…my insides feeling guilty about skipping my work..what to do? It was so much fun. Few things I realized..I don’t gel too soon. I get talked on a lot about being thin..which is now wearing me out a little! Then, I totally enjoy dancing,…this I knew but got in love with sweat during this period..and meeting other people who were a part of it. Lastly, I think could have faired better as a boy! I mean I love being a girl…and I have some of those feminine traits(shopping..worrying..etc.) but here I was amongst a bunch of girls, of all kinds..and I felt so out of place..I didn’t gossip..I didn’t talk about my weight..I didn’t feel like talking about guys…I didn’t have any clue on make up, touch up what so ever..and then when my friend saw me in the flash mob group pic…she said..you could have done better with your clothes..and I was like yeah whatever! Sometimes it can be more about living the moment than those outer crust paraphernalia..like how were you looking , how good did you dance and whether you took the selfie or not. In that moment..I had thousand volts of fun. Hindi songs..Telugu song..Kannad song..Gasolina…Lungi dance..man! I was all there and enjoying it. :). Guys asserted their love for rear ends by hooting everytime we took a turn. :D. One girl bombed our dance in between and we had a good amount of laugh later when we saw the video. I guess I will mark this day as a good memory and probably that is why the blog!

Liebster Award

Hi all! I was nominated for the Liebster Award by shaudvr and I am supposed to answer the questions she put forward. This is something I am new to, but anyway makes me glad you nominated me shaudvr. :).

These are the rules:
1. Link the person who nominated you to your blog post and let them know you answered their questions.
2. Answer the 11 questions given to you by the nominator.
3. Nominate other bloggers (11) for the award that have fewer than 200 followers.
4. Create 11 questions for your nominees to answer.
5. Let the nominees know that they have been nominated by going to their blog and notifying them.

Here are my responses:

1. Why did you start a blog?
It relieves me in a way. I feel happier when I have written something and shared it across. I also relate to many others who write different stories from their lives. Blogging engages me.

2. Do people (friends, family) around you know you have a blog?
My closest friends, they know. My family, currently no. My colleagues and acquaintances, no. I wanted it to be more of a me thing where people who scarcely know me don’t give their opinions on my thoughts.

3. Where do you get inspiration for your blog posts?
My blog posts usually contain random thoughts that run in my mind, I see or experience something in my routine life and some days I write about it. Most of the times, I write when I am alone. So, may be seclusion inspires them.

4. What is something about yourself you feel like you need to work on?
I have to learn detachment. I want to be less affected by people around me. Some have become my weakness. I want to be content with myself. I do try.

5. What does blogging (writing) mean to you? (a hobby, way of expressing yourself e.g.)
Catharsis might be the right word for it. When I write something, I feel I have took it out of my mind and let it out to the world. These are just words coming out but they are my words, they are what I am in a way. I write and I let a little more bit of myself out.

6. What is your dream job?
Mmm, I still don’t have answer for this yet.

7. Who inspires you?
Hedonists inspire me. People who have suffered and still come out strong. People who have risen from the earth, started from the scratch. My mother inspires me for the person she is.

8. What is the most beautiful place you have visited so far?
Manali, India, comes to my mind right now. It was breath-takingly, refreshingly beautiful. Snow every where, the sun, the trees, the wind, the streets, everything to fall in love with!

9. What is your all time favorite movie?
I love this movie, The Prestige. I equally love, P.S. I Love You and DDLJ(Hindi). So that makes three of them.:).

10. What is the most delicious food you have ever eaten? (I’m a foodie, so I couldn’t resist.)
I love everything my mom cooks. So home cooked chhole bhature, dosa, dhokla, dahi bade. All these are Indian dishes. :).

11. What is a quality you admire in people?
Genuineness. Honesty. People who are unassuming and comfortable to be around.

Well these questions did make me ponder. Now, my questions, your answers. :D. I would like to nominate the following:
1. littlerayofsunsian
2. ipsitanayak07
3. K. L. Register
4. Ankit Mishra
5. womenwhothinktoomuch
6. Toothless Hedgehog
7. Pratik Akkwar
8. quartervida
9. shewritesoflife
10. typingandthinking
11. littlemissunsure

I would really love to read your answers and know you more! Thus the nominations. Following are my questions:
1. You started a blog because?
2. What do you love doing the most? Any activity.
3. Your favorite writer and the book you like most.
4. Describe one trait of yours that you find silly.
5. First childhood memory that comes to your mind?
6. You are most comfortable in what kind of clothes?
7. Summers or winters? Why?
8. Something you have learnt from your parents?
9. Do you think you’ll be writing after 5 years from now?
10. Best and the worst thing you find about technology?
11. If you had to keep a pet, what would it be?(the ones already having can describe theirs)

To the people I have linked, please do oblige if you find time. :). Ciao.