You wouldn’t believe if I lay down all my woes. You will find a way to diminish their weight. I am feeling the things I am feeling not for any other reason but that I cannot help feeling. I wish I could stop it all. I wish to go back in time where life wasn’t throwing these lessons at me. Where birds chirped and lovers squabbled. I write in angst. I write to subside the pain. That flickering ray of positivity still resides in my being. Today is just another day. And tomorrow will bring with it fresh energy.
Saturday morning. Pensive mood. Looking forward to living this day. Happiness is in you. Make it last. Spread it around. Turning 25 soon. Not liking it. Still smiling. Exploring new phone. Virtual world is boring me. And yet I am blogging here. Bits of virtual world are boring me. Not finding genuine emotions to cater to. Staying away from human kind. Short sentences. Lesser words. Wishing someone tried to understand the silence. People give you every reason to walk away. Yet you decide to stay. It is difficult. So darn difficult.
All human interactions I have had today have turned me either upset or down or agitated. People are rude, with their words, actions or intents. I am probably going to buy a pet and start talking to it instead. I feel quite at loss of words today and genuinely hurt. I will not think about this right now.
I have to wake up early tomorrow, there are important works to do, it’s already 2:27 am. There was this song I had heard the other day. Kya khoya, kya paaya, itna kyun soche hai..tu hai nadiya, tu hai dariya, kyun khud ko roke hai..(what’s lost, what did you gain, why are you thinking so much…you are a river, you are the ocean, why then stopping yourself..)
I am too effin’ sentient to people around me. Will STOP this very moment.