This I am doing just to fulfill my whim. It’s his birthday. For the person I had known and cherished, my Birthday wishes reach out to him. :). I do miss the urge and excitement to make him feel special on this particular day. But no big deal. You, have a good time and know that I am wishing you great things in life ahead.
This one out of pure unadulterated affection and nothing else.
This new year…even if figuratively speaking, is giving me lot of positive vibes about it. I am going with the flow. I am not putting much thought into things. I met this guy the other day…and in middle of something he noticed the weird brown color of my eyes..and i have been through that “oh your eyes are different..beautiful” so many times…and i responded my usual “yeah..i have heard that”..but it still felt good. Made me smile. My inside nerves were kind of surprised..that okay, i am feeling content in the moment. We walked…and spoke…and walked some more..and i have lost track of the responses i evoke when a guy is looking at me..but the funny thing is I still blush. It was like am dusting off an old book from yore. The uncertainities when meeting a new person are plenty and i guess that makes it so easy. You are not expecting anything and there is no load on your shoulders. I know life goes on…and people come people go….am not analysing it much. May be it’s better to be in the moment. My friends are pretty relieved and happy that i met some person! It’s endearing to realize how they are always there. And it’s funny how they enquire and speculate. Mind says: Take it easy.